My play time for this game has been on and off for a while, and recently I started to play again regularly on a daily basis... I've been doing pick up groups and some in-mission RP banter, and I thought, this is fine, right?
I'm in an SG based on the olden days when we were on live, and don't get me wrong, I love this group but.... no one plays except for maybe 2-3 of us and not very regularly. (Me myself had not been regular) so, it feels like I live in a ghost town of my past.
But that's also the thing, for some reason, I am also TERRIFIED of trying to join a new group or what even to do. I haven't RPed seriously in a while and I guess my confidence in just doing so dropped. (It shouldn't, why would I suddenly be bad at roleplaying now, that makes no sense, done it in multiple MMOs for DECADES now...) ... (and also I'm a very naturally shy and reserved person)
So, I don't know where I'm going with this post really.
Maybe I'm seeking some attention? Or maybe I just need to get things off my mind? Who knows....
(and yeah just keep on making alts and running TFs all the time, I'm getting a bit burned out...)