To quote one of my favourite lines in a book, some people will "hold on to a grudge until it dies of old age, then have it stuffed and mounted." I still hate my X but I have at least gotten over the urge to shoot them on site. There are better thing to put your energies towards, like rolling up another character and playing with friends.
Playing with friends, that's something that I would think would be missing on the Shadow server, if your game friends weren't there, how much fun would it really be?