Feeling a bit lost and lonely?

[TsukiSumarasu]

My play time for this game has been on and off for a while, and recently I started to play again regularly on a daily basis... I've been doing pick up groups and some in-mission RP banter, and I thought, this is fine, right?

I'm in an SG based on the olden days when we were on live, and don't get me wrong, I love this group but.... no one plays except for maybe 2-3 of us and not very regularly. (Me myself had not been regular) so, it feels like I live in a ghost town of my past.

 

But that's also the thing, for some reason, I am also TERRIFIED of trying to join a new group or what even to do. I haven't RPed seriously in a while and I guess my confidence in just doing so dropped. (It shouldn't, why would I suddenly be bad at roleplaying now, that makes no sense, done it in multiple MMOs for DECADES now...) ... (and also I'm a very naturally shy and reserved person)

So, I don't know where I'm going with this post really.

Maybe I'm seeking some attention? Or maybe I just need to get things off my mind? Who knows....

 

(and yeah just keep on making alts and running TFs all the time, I'm getting a bit burned out...)

Edited December 15 by TsukiSumarasu

[Gerald_Deemer]

Made the same experience like you. It seems that there are not much active and well managed SGs out there. Leading a SG is a busy job and keeping a SG together is a social theme. Joining with a low level character nowadays is like being isolated automatically from the other SG members. It was different in the old days for sure.

[TsukiSumarasu]

Yes, I am 1000% sure running an SG is difficult work and takes a lot of time and effort.

I guess I am just being nostalgic of the old days... lol

[CherokeeMan2000]

If you need some RP practice, im more than happy to RP with you, super casual nothing crazy. I know the feeling of not really have much to do because of the lack of active people around you, and the urge to jump ship for something better.

 

I extend a formal handshake to thee! Find me @CherokeeMan2000 in game. I just kinda got back to playing after almost a year away, but as per usual i love this game and come back.

 

Edited December 15 by CherokeeMan2000

[Kult]

I'm  the head of the SG that Tsuki is apart of. And yeah time playing is a major issue,   And recruiting to get new blood into the SG seems nigh impossible. I've done what I could to get older plays back and its just not happening. And new players (especially since unlike Tsuki I am not great at RP) coming into a group that only has 3 or 4 part time players.. well I've been gunshy to try to bring anyone in 

 

Tsuki is awesome and anyone would be lucky to have her kicking ass with her. 

[Kelri Irris]

Honestly, I think you're doing the right thing in talking about it. At 52yo, I can quite honestly tell you that what you're going through is not only normal, but doesn't mean you're not doing anything right. As you get to know yourself better in your life, you'll find that there are situations that are not your job to fix and weren't caused by you to begin with (I know my brain demons have yelled these things at me), and what I've found works in that it makes ME feel better about the situation that is entirely out of my control/influence/etc. Just focusing on me and what I wanted to get out of it, I changed the way I approached RP in "public" spaces so that other "unknown/insecure" folks might see that this is a person that is approachable, and maybe it leads somewhere, maybe it doesn't, but at least it gave them an option that could potentially make me a new friend. I just kind of got into that mindset of writing my character with that in mind - making them approachable to someone with my insecurities. It helped some. Helped me a lot. 

 

Hope you find a way forward that makes YOU feel good. 🙂